All I Want For Christmas

Can't be put under a tree.  For the past probably 9 months or so Mr. Man and I have been working on making Little Man a big brother.  We have had no success.  I know it takes some families a long time to get pregnant, but after how fast it was to have baby #1 I thought it would be just as easy to have baby #2.  Was I ever so wrong.  9 months and nothing.  Each month it's like Christmas morning almost....am I going to get what I really want?  Each month it's total and complete frustration.  People have told me that if we stopped trying it would happen, but I don't understand why it's taking this long.  Telling me to stop trying isn't helping me not feel like there is something wrong with me.  All I want is to see my family grow.  Because of some of the tests results we got when I was pregnant with the Little Man I have decided that after 36 I'm not going to have anymore children.  So each month I'm a step closer to that and I see my dreams of a big family slip further and further away from me. 

Have you been dealing with any infertility issues?  What have you done?

Oh, and here's a family picture for you!